life is quite puzzling!

i go to amsterdam soon. i'm filled with feelings of nervous excitement. how will i pay? what will i do? why am i going? blah blah, but who cares? i am going, and that's good. it's good to be going. it's a similar feeling to when i spent a sunday afternoon loading my belongings into that grand ol' saturn i use to drive before leaving for portland the next day. i asked myself the same questions then, but dismissed them, the way i do tonight. why question myself? questions get in the way of decisions. now there's something to be said for practicality, but i'm a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants kinda guy. yes, this can conjure up some trouble, but i like to live life in a reactionary way. figure it out as i go. in a way, i dig through all the pieces and, as the straight edges of this puzzle snap together, i recognize the pieces of the bigger picture, fasten them together, and start to discover the details. i've always enjoyed puzzles. life, however, is a puzzle with consequences. luckily, i accept these. on the other hand, i never finished a puzzle with more than 1000 pieces and i don't have to tell you, life has more than 1000 pieces!